I Love This Meme
It very accurately describes how I feel most of the time, and there’s so many great pictures to encompass it:
But before I get to far with this, I want to assure you that this isn’t some self-wallowing “impostor syndrome”. When I say I have no idea what I’m doing it’s because I don’t. There certainly are a lot of things that I think I do well. But I make it a point to spend as much time as I can doing things that I’m not good at – doing things that make me feel like I have no idea what I’m doing.
I don’t know anything about marketing or managing a mailing list, for example. I’m sending you all these emails, hoping that somewhere along the way I’ll say something useful. Frankly, sitting here typing this email is turning my stomach in circles and making me want to vomit, though. I don’t know if this is useful or if it’s garbage. Will you love it or hate it? I have no idea what I’m doing… not yet, at least.
I don’t know anything about running a business, either. But here I am, an independent developer and consultant, running a handful of businesses (successfully or not – to be determined). I stress out, I break down and lose control, I do my best to learn from the mistakes I make and I hope the mistakes don’t cost me too much. I’ve been on the brink of collapse, emptying all of my bank accounts. I have no idea what I’m doing… not yet, at least.
There are so many things I’m doing these days, that are completely foreign to me. I feel lost most of the time. I have no idea what I’m doing… and I want to give up, go home and get back to what I know. Sometimes I do that. But I try to stick with these new and scary things and see them through to the end. If I don’t, then I am probably not learning anything. And if I’m not learning anything, I’m not growing.
Stepping outside of what we know and what we’re comfortable with is how we learn. It is how we grow. It is how we become someone that does know what they’re doing in any given subject.
So go out there, do something completely different than you normally do, for a while. Make yourself uncomfortable and put yourself in a position where you feel like you have no idea what you’re doing. And then do it again. And again. And again. And again. Do it often enough and you’ll get comfortable with the idea of being uncomfortable.
This is where we really start to see our own personal growth become exponential instead of sluggish and linear.
– The eternally uncomfortable,